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Post by MWC DemonHunter on Jan 21, 2006 16:42:14 GMT -5
I guess I had better give you a rundown on the whole situation..this might be long and if it is, I'm sorry...here it goes:
When I was younger I was a dedicated Christian. I went to Church every time the doors were open, prayed often and read my Bible and witnessed and such. Well, when I turned about 16 or 17 I started looking elsewhere for answers and found Wicca through the music of Godsmack and some other sources such as a teacher I had in high school. That being said, I started a quick downward spiral. I started pushing things a little further, listening to bands with a little more evil overtones. I started reading books like the Necronomicon and LaVey's series on Satanism and a host of books on Wicca and Witchcraft. Anyway, now I striving to become a Christian again, I have a beautiful wife and daughter now and I just want to live my life as Christ would want me to. But, for some reason it feels like there is this invisible ceiling between myself and God. I mean, I pray and pray and nothing happens. I don't feel anything. When I used to pray I'd often get that little sort of tingle that I felt was God saying, "I hear you" but now, there's nothing. When I pray I don't feel happy or like I am being heard or that I am getting through. I'm worried that I may have opened myself up to some demonic influences and that my be the cause or worse yet...I may have done something or gone so far that God finally gave up. Thanks in advance for your advice or prayers and God bless.
Richard
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Post by shredmetal777 on Jan 21, 2006 16:47:13 GMT -5
God will accept you back,there is only one unforgiveable sin,I'll pray for you,Just pray to God and tell him you want to rededicate your life to him and rebuke satan in the name of Jesus and ask God to make all demonic forces leave you alone.
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Post by MWC DemonHunter on Jan 21, 2006 20:47:56 GMT -5
I wanted to add that I was praying for some inspirate and then I read John 15 1:3 which says"
1I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman.
2Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit.
3Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you.
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Post by MWC DemonHunter on Jan 21, 2006 20:48:21 GMT -5
Sorry to double post here so quickly but I guess that this proves that God is listening to me at least a little.
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Post by shredmetal777 on Jan 21, 2006 22:55:25 GMT -5
He is listening,keep talking to him.
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Post by Chad on Jan 22, 2006 0:22:49 GMT -5
no matter what, God will always listen, and he will always answer prayers in the way that he knows they need to be answered. so just keep praying, keep doing everything you can to be closer to God.
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Post by MWC DemonHunter on Jan 22, 2006 0:46:32 GMT -5
Thanks for the encouragement. I don't mean to complain or just throw all of my personal junk out there but I have another personal request if I might be so bold. It's with my wife...her Grandmother passed away about a month and a half ago and she was really more like my wife's mother...well, ever since then everyday has been an argument with my wife. I'm getting to the point where I'm beyond worn down with it and just now I was trying to record the screaming *while mostly whispering mind you* and she came in and was like, "would you stop that, you're giving me chills and interrupting my praying. That stuff can't be 100% Christian" She grates my nerves because I was Wiccan she swears I am going back by listening to heavy music which simply is not the case. She swears that my music makes her nervous and panic and crap and I keep telling her it's all in her head....God forbid I actually get INTO a metal band though. Anyway, thanks for listening guys, you all are awesome for the encouragement. God bless.
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Post by Solid on Jan 22, 2006 1:08:53 GMT -5
Well, for the prayer thing...just start your prayer by simply praising God. Tell Him why He's awesome, why you love Him, and all that good stuff...then let your heart speak. I'll pray for your wife too. God bless you, man.
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Post by MWC DemonHunter on Jan 22, 2006 1:18:55 GMT -5
Thanks a lot and God bless you too. It's comforting to know that as Christians we have places to turn to in our brothers and sisters in Christ. I know that, a lot of times, it's even worse for me because I listen to metal and stuff so I ostracize myself even moreso than normal Christians. God bless all of you for being willing to help me out.
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Post by createsalvation on Jan 22, 2006 4:05:37 GMT -5
I'll pray for you man... I need to pray for everyone that I can, so someone can eventually pray for me... Keep us updated man!
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Post by shredmetal777 on Jan 22, 2006 15:37:17 GMT -5
Stay strong man,I'll pray that you and your wife will get along better. God is there for you,just cast all your cares upon him, the Bible says Come to me all you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest,so let the Lord take control!!! If you're a child of God and you are if you've been saved,accepted Jesus,repented of your sins,God can and will help you with any thing he's bigger than all the pain of this world!!!
God Bless you,man!!!
Your brother In Christ,ShredMetal
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Post by crazywaffle on Jan 22, 2006 21:59:54 GMT -5
When i feel really bad or seperated from God, i read the bible and pray, and i also talk to my close christian friends. They are very helpful. But I'll be praying for you and your wife as you go through all this. And just remember, you are not alone. There are people here who are praying for you and care for you. But most of all God loves you.
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Post by MWC DemonHunter on Jan 23, 2006 1:29:40 GMT -5
A small update, I went to Church this morning and my wife and daughter stayed at home and I felt like I needed to give a testimony of the things that happened and the verse that God showed me and I just felt the spirit so strongly and I was crying so I feel more and more like Christ is with me. I have been having trouble reading scripture and remembering it or staying interested and today I read the lesson for our evening service and took notes and even remembered everything fine when our pastor spoke so I know that God is working on me. Anyway, that doesn't mean that I'll stop needing prayer and I'll be sure to throw up prayers for all of you tonight. God bless once again and thanks so much for being so much like a family for me.
Ohhh! Also, my daughter is getting sick. She's been sleeping all day and now she's started coughing and I think she is running a fever so if you all don't mind putting her before God in your prayers tonight.
Thanks again,
Richard
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Post by Solid on Jan 23, 2006 16:35:00 GMT -5
That's good to hear! Well, I'll keep your daughter in my prayers...it's the time of year for everyone to be sick, so everyone better be careful.
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Post by shredmetal777 on Jan 23, 2006 17:59:04 GMT -5
That's good to hear! Well, I'll keep your daughter in my prayers...it's the time of year for everyone to be sick, so everyone better be careful. |
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